Addiction is NOT a Disease

I cannot agree more. The writer did a great job of what has been on my mind. As I’ve written before about being on the OTHER side of addiction, this so-called ‘disease’ is a nasty byproduct of sin. Since reading through the scriptures it’s easily seen that God is not a respecter of persons and every person is accounted for and precious to Him.

Addiction is NOT a disease, much to the dismay of my family members who believe this. My opinion is that people want to shirk some of the responsibility of their addiction to something or someone else calling it not just a disease, but a hereditary disease. Nothing can be further from the truth. God did not make one person an alcoholic, another a meth addict, another obese & diabetic, and another pristine clean. However, understanding that there is truth to generational sin will free the addicted from thinking in terms that it’s someone else’s mess they have to clean up. Rather, let the addicted understand, accept, and believe in restoration. ~ My Life as a Christian

On the OTHER Side of Addiction

We hear on the news, internet, and other media sources about addiction, the addict, what the addict did, etc. Addiction is ugly and deadly. But I’m on the OTHER side of addiction, I’m his mom.

What seems like a million years ago, I was married to an addict. Saw it all with my own eyes…and so did my kid.

Every day I wondered if this was going to be THAT day. Will I find him dead? Will he crash his vehicle again? Is he in jail again? Will he come home? Will he hurt us again? Again and again, over and over…I waited for the other shoe to drop. It’s a surreal thing watching someone slowly commit suicide with drugs and alcohol and be completely helpless.

And every day of this marriage my young son watched and was witness to this daily chaos. As parents we want to protect our kids and home, but when you are married to an addict you’re too busy dealing with the addiction than trying to keep a home and family and a job. And for that I have begged God for forgiveness that my sweet child had to see this horror when all I had to do was just leave. I had to find out many years later that the cancer had spread.

The last day I saw him was 25 years ago, TODAY.

I won’t go through all of the gory details, that’s for me and God to know. But I do want to address what it’s like on the OTHER side of addiction….because that addiction spread like a cancer to one of my children.

Unlike a very bad marriage, you can’t just ‘leave’ your kids. An addicted adult child is much harder to understand and deal with because they are forever your children, not a bad marriage. I truly thought that after seeing with his young eyes how bad addiction was that it would be the absolute last thing that would happen to him. The cancer spread anyway and without any fanfare…yes, I was totally blindsided because I was never a drug user. Remember this the next time you think your kids aren’t paying attention to what you are saying or doing.

About thirteen years ago, I gave my life to Jesus and eventually became ordained…all before I found out about my son’s addiction. Now I have different eyes to see through and a different heart to love with. The hard thing for my kid to do was confess his addiction to me, the hard thing for me to do was accept the fact that it happened.

Just like with my ex-husband, I have to deal with codependency and enabling. I don’t want to make his addiction worse, I want to make his recovery extraordinary! But isn’t that just like a Christian, wanting to give the devil a great big ole black eye? Then what does a person do, on the OTHER side of addiction? Every day for me I struggle with wondering if I’ll get THAT phone call and every day he struggles with the real pain of detoxing. It’s harrowing, it’s hard and it’s exhausting.

Certainly I am NOT alone, although for the rest of you I wish it were just me. But as people on the OTHER side of addiction, we have to band up with the LORD and each other to face that precious face of our addicted adult child. This is a love I never knew I had but God is GOOD! He gives us this supernatural strength to see our kids with His eyes.

If there is one thing I would say to ANY addict, it is this: YOU HAVE NOT BEEN FORSAKEN. You are NOT an accident or mistake. Your life is NOT over. You are important to GOD! And here’s why: The Bible says “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you; before you were born I sanctified you; I ordained you a prophet to the nations.” This scripture says that we are all known by God since the beginning of the world with a purpose and path already assigned to us. There is no mistake or accident, God does NOT make mistakes! God cannot lie! We are all His, and He is ours. 

If there is one thing that is foremost on my mind about my addicted adult child is that I never want him to feel hopeless or worthless. That kind of desperation paralyzes me; and if it does that to me, I cannot imagine what that does to him.

As a mom, I have said that I would die for my child if it meant saving theirs. I’m sure you’ve said the same thing. But One mightier than I has died for him, and died for me! Jesus is the only way to true salvation and restoration! I could die for my kid but that would do nothing for him when Jesus can give him the true love that will save his life!

Addiction is forever, so is Eternity. And for as much as I LOVE my son, God loves him even MORE!

Every day I wake up giving my kid to Jesus and trusting God to heal and restore him from drugs, then I ask God to keep my heart full of love and understanding with the right balance to help my kid, not hurt him. After that I thank God for a husband who cares for and loves my kid and me. I can’t imagine my life without either of these guys.

Recovery…restoration is one day at a time, for all of us, even on the OTHER side of addiction.

“To console those who mourn in Zion,
To give them beauty for ashes,
The oil of joy for mourning,
The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness;
That they may be called trees of righteousness,
The planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.” Isaiah 61:3

TRUSTJESUS

 

30 DAY PARENTING PRAYER CHALLENGE: Day 5

Blessing comes with a great price. Addicts need to lose everything to come out clean.

v20 Then Job arose, tore his robe, and shaved his head; and he fell to the ground and worshiped. v21 And he said:

“Naked I came from my mother’s womb,
And naked shall I return there.
The Lord gave, and the Lord has taken away;
Blessed be the name of the Lord.”

v22 In all this Job did not sin nor charge God with wrong. [Job 1:20-22]

I have seen addiction up close and personal; family, children, ex-husband, etc. I’ve been to meetings that do nothing more than point fingers or manufactures excuses. I believe I’ve only seen one or two cases where a 12 step program actually worked on the long term, and PRAISE GOD for that. The Bible says, “As a dog returns to his own vomit, so a fool repeats his folly“, [Proverbs 26:11]. Without Jesus, we are doomed to repeat what has beset us. I call this SIN, not addiction. Actually, I don’t believe in ‘addiction’ the way most people do; I think it’s more ‘habitual sin’. More on that later.

When addicts come to the saving knowledge of Jesus Christ, it all becomes clear. We have nothing when we are born, we have nothing when we die. The unsaved see that as a lamentation where followers of Christ see that as comfort. People put themselves through hell to NO avail. There is nothing we can take with us when we die but the knowledge that we will be in the arms of Jesus when we pass.

We are in need of nothing except Jesus. 

Job was a wealthy, Godly man; a man looked up to in the community of the day. And that community watched as he was stricken. God used this to teach the community of that day who God is and what truly is valuable. Every possession Job had was taken – but Job knew that everything in the present world is temporary and eternity is forever. Job chose to thank God for an eternity in the presence of God forever. There is no better possession or hope.

I pray today for one of our sons, one that has battled a war. He’s been clean for months and I pray that he will seek just the Lord rather than a ‘fix’. My spiritual eyes tell me that his battle is over but I never go without a quiver full of prayer for him.

v8 For You have delivered my soul from death, my eyes from tears, and my feet from falling.
v9 I will walk before the Lord in the land of the living. [Psalm 116:8-9]